If I Could...

a poem

If I Could Float

If I could float,
Would I seek to be anchored,
Set to sail,
Or drift free - no course, no end?

If I could fight,
Would I rush to brawl,
Or stand taller,
Letting stillness speak for me?

If I could fall,
Would it be for real?
Would it hurt
Or fade like a forgotten dream?

If I could cry,
Would I scream
A raw and broken sound,
Or would I sob?

If I could crumble,
Would I destroy
Tear through everything,
Or quietly disintegrate?

If things weren’t so fixed in my mind,
Could I let go
And find the shape of myself?